Today is a special day for my mother, for me and for my family. It is the day when a beautiful soul arrived in this world and influenced everyone around her. It is the day when my mother took her first breath in this world. The day should be and had always been the most auspicious day of my life but I was so dumb and self-indulged that it took me too long to celebrate it. It is not like that I never knew about it but it was my cold hearted behaviour towards my mother that I never cared enough about it.
There were few times when I did thought of doing something for mother to make it memorable but I couldn't even give her a proper wish leave apart any celebration. It might be might reserve nature or the environment I have been brought up all these years. After all these years and series of failure to celebrate here I am, writing this and realising how many times I have missed the opportunities to give her a good day. I now regret for all the things I had done (which I shouldn't have) and those I hadn't (which I should have).
As I woke up this day, I just wished she were here with me. As long as she was alive all those years, she couldn't have a better memory but now when she is not here every year we are gonna miss her on her birthday. This is how life is you don't realise the value of things and people unless you looss them.
I know there is no point in thinking of all these things, as they are not going to change the fact that she is no longer with us. She has gone to a probably better world or taken new birth where she don't have to face all the struggles of life again. Now, all I can wish is that (if reincarnation does happen as written in Shastras) wherever she is, she get all the happiness. Happiness and all the joys which she couldn't get in this life.
May God give me one more chance to serve her one day in whatever form of life she takes her re-birth.
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